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Thanks for the comments on the last post!! After getting some fresh air and food in my stomach, I thought about the whole surgery thing and came with this conclusion, I'm fine the way and am and fuck the surgery (cuz I'm a cheap ass asian bastard =) ). Guess the whole being single again after a loving relationship is so hard because  pretty much Kade set the bar on what I truly need =P. I personally just need to deal with my body image issues like every gay guy in this world and just live freely and make friends (that's all I need now) and of course improve my current friendships I have and expose everything to them.....(lol).

So as of late I've been contemplating about getting laser treatment for my face. Yeah that sounds pretty broad but yeah acne scars, my annoying moles (non cancerous), scars, etc have made me hate how I look. Seein gthe Billboards while driving and seeing all thses advertisements for lap bands, boob jobs, and laser acne removable kinda makes me think about today's view on body image. For me, I'm whatevers about peoples choices to do these surgeries because some of them have good reason to, but some uniques cases where body dismorphia comes into play is not so great.

I wonder sometimes if I do have a minor case of body dismorphia, cuz I constantly look at myself with grimace and dissapointment of my efforts to want to look better. People say otherwise and I wonder if my own perceptions are kinda fucked up.

So now I want to do this so I could get rid of my facial crap and live my life without being bothered by it. This may seem shallow to some of you, and I admit I'm being shallow about it. I honestly just do not want to deal with acne, or the thought of amI attractive enough to meet some guy ...blah blah blah.  As a gay man, jhaving the ideal body, great face, and smile is something that is integrated into the sterotypical culture. I hate to say it, but most of us a shallow when it comes to our physical appearence that we become trapped in it. I should be opposing this ideal and live my life as I want to according to my personal beliefs and meet a guy with personality, but that'll just be me, and the other guys will just have the same midset, "What a hot body you have! or you got a nice !@#@" lol. I'm really tired of it, being single and meeting guys like these...

Gah...if I sound so roundabout and incoherent, I blame the fumes at work XD

Current Mood: contemplative

That's right, I justthought about this right now, but I seriously want to start a dead ninja cosplay group cuz it's lols. It's not zombie cosplay, but more of a tribute to the dead characters that allowed for the progression of Naruto!


So here I go =P

Asuma Sarutobi
1st-4th Hokage

Hayate

Naruto's Mom

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Seriuously guys, this will be epic XD

Lolz. so finally I'm gonna submit a roster for the characters in the S-Rank and Main Storyline Characters of Fairy Tail. I'M AIMING FOR FANIME SINCE IT'S GONNA BE 4 MONTHS AWAY BUT I KNOW PEOPLE ARE PREPS THEIR 123123 COSTUMES FOR THAT CON SO IF YOU'RE INTERESTED JUST LEAVE A COMMENT. DO WANT TO DO THIS, OMG DREAMS....


( Roster under the cut, with pictures... )

And also, every other character can be done as well!!! I just wanted to really get the S RANKS down as priority =)

First of All, Happy Chinese New Years Gais!! Shout out to all my Ox peeps, cuz we ownin this year! (kinda watched a ghetteo movie yesturday)


Anywho, back to the topic!

So I've been thinking about this ever since this year started. I really want to make some cosplay groups this year so we could have some awesome photoshoots and jjust some company instead of cosplaying alone from a series (which drags alot at cons)

So the Groups I wanna form are the following:

Shibukai from One Piece Group for AX 2009
I seriously want to get this going since they revealed the entire group in the present manga. OMG if I get this group set, I could finally do some final improvements to the Cross Blade.

S-Rank +Main Characters of Fairy Tail

OMGGGGGGG....Do want to have a group with all of the S rank Mages of Fairy Tail!@#!@#@# Please my LJ crew, if anything help make this happen!@#@

So I'll have a more detail list of each group later on today, since I'm at a party right now. Lolz.

Peace,

Wilson

Holy shit man!! Naruto you're a genius.....!@# You've become par with Fairy Tail in my book now.....FFFFF BLEACH. =)

FUCK YOU...k thanks.

Here's my Flickr link!

http://www.flickr.com/photos/29579536@N04/

My Thoughts on the set:

So I honestly love this shoot alot since I got to experiment with different essence of lighting concepts. I wish I took more pictures of Meg, Chloe, Anela, Ming, muze, stephy, yeah lolz all of the girls since I got the guys =). Everyone has their particular characteristic that really shows through the pictures and I wanna continue improving myself to I could well just get better and more experiemental.

The whole Flim Noir thing is something I wanna focus on since I got the presents for Lightroom and probably have m ore plug ins thanks to evalime 's suggestions (Thanks bro!). There's a type of Calvin Kleinish feeling for it, but to better describe it, it's more nostalgic than anything. My favorite B/W picture was the one with the group where everyone is just chilled out and relax, that I think was one of the best pictures, and it wasn't even posed =).

Anywho, off to the gym, my destiny to shoot myself shirtless must continue, lol!

This better cut or else!

( Final Set )